Square One

"something always brings me back to you"

I've fallen in love before,
With you.
A summer not too long ago...
But it might as well have been a forever.
You don't understand,
You will never understand..
The pain, the hurt,
The want, the hate,
The love that will never fade.
Forevermore you will be the one that I chased away,
All on my own.
It was my fault, wasn't it?
You made it my fault, didn't you?
It was like a bullet in my foot, the pain.

You've been my inspiration
Everlasting, never fading.
I wrote "remember when"
Cried every second while I wrote it..
Because I remember when...



We passed an island in the Mediterranean waters
On our plane ride to Greece,
"That's beautiful..."
The words fell from my mouth as the only two I could find
You whispered something, I heard you
But I thought I heard wrong
"What?"
You looked at me and laughed,
Not intending to repeat
Fun fact you must not have known then:
I'm persistant.
"Tell me what you said"
"What do you think is the most beautiful thing you
Have ever seen.."
"I'm not sure,
The Mona Lisa was pretty,
Too much hype actually, not that great."
"Try again,
What do you think is the most beautiful thing you
Have ever seen?"
"I don't know!"
"What do you think will be the most beautiful thing
We see on this trip?"
"The Parthenon, tomorrow!"
"Then if you remember this
"I'll tell you what I said tomorrow"
"Okay, I won't forget."

And I didn't.
Climbing to the top of this historical landmark
You smiled at me
That same smile
The smile that stole my heart
The smile the I saw every night in my dreams
For countless nights to come
Almost at the top.
"So, you said you'd tell me today"
"Not yet"
"Why not?"
Almost there
"Because"
"You should just tell me, you're making me mad"
Now.
Jaw dropped, "This is breath taking"
That smile, again
"Just like you.."

I remember.
I will always remember
I will never forget anything
Not even the day you told me
We would never speak again
I will never forget
The sound a heart makes
When it breaks into pieces
A deafening silence
A twinge
A weight..
Un-lifted
Unshifted
Never gone


Forevermore you will be the one that I chased away,
All on my own.
It was my fault, wasn't it?
You made it my fault, didn't you?
It was like a bullet in my foot, the pain.
The love that will never fade.

"i never wanted anything so much, than to drown in your love, and not feel your pain."